Monday, December 11, 2006
hmmm...it is 1.45 now currently watching arsenal winning chelsea and yeah tats the way i want it.lol...manu r 6 points clear now..haix..the sense of guilt is increasing as the holidays passed man..like quite alot of ppl have a job now and r working but i am still at home slacking occasionally helping dad but tats diff case la..even though i kept telling myself tat from now till cristmas theres only 2 weeks now and no ppl in the right mind will hire a 16 year old inexperience boy for a job for 2 weeks..but the sense of guilt is just there la...zzzz and oh fuk.......chelsea equalise..haix..things just dun go the way we want dun they..tats how life goes lol.
tomoro going out with the 2j boys but some reason i dun feel enthu..true tat we had not have a gathering for ages and this might be the last we r having with no class chalet going on and stuff..but i just dun feel enthu...haix..mood swing happens so often nowadays.i worry bout this and feel sad bout tat..maybe tats part of growing up..everynite at this period of day my mood turns down because of o lev....yeah true olev is over but the fact tat the result is the impactful one still remains..throughout my scondary school life i had yet to achieve one result sheet tat is up to satisfactory and this cert is one tat i cannot cok up tats y this uneasy feeling kept haunting me...
oo..the match end le..1-1 not bad la at least chelsea didnt win.lol..
her birthday is coming soon...i realli want to get her a bday present and wish her happi birthday for the last time..but it seems ages tat i last spoke to her and it also seems tat another better guy had appeared..haix..i realli dunno wad to do liao..tues even have this stupid idea of getting a present and take it to her house wish her happi bday and leave..impratical totally crappy but not impossible.........haix..wad should i do theres no one to help or advice me i realli dunno....shall it end all like this but considering the fact tat she didnt even wish me happi bday then...am i realli thinking too much..haix..i dunno i realli dunno...i am being to hate decision making...they r just too painful to make..life realli suks man...
lets hope this sleep will cure everything if i can sleep tonite
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