Monday, December 04, 2006
another 3 months had passed...prelim is over olevs r over and even grad nite is over...life is like wad i had expected..carefree and slacking but this is getting boring..strange to find out tat this had been the life tat i had been asking for but not anymore.at first wanted to find a job but couldnt find any and on top of tat my mood is falling..i feel tired and not only tat more of regretful..i want to go back to the past.i want to reexperience wad i went through.i want to correct the mistakes i made.i want to treasure wad i had once.i want to talk to you once more..
haix..feeling veri low rite now..doesnt feel tat bad then with all sorts of things occupying me but now with all this free time my mind began to wander..i dun know wad i want then but given the chance again i wont miss it and will never miss it but it is all too late.maybe tats y it is call the past..strange tat i always miss the past hate the present and question the future.i want to be given the chance to redo everything but i did not treasure the present like now.tat y this is call life isnt it..lol.i have so much to say so much to tell but i couldnt find a listening ear and i seems like this blog is the only audience for my feelings..no one will see this extinct blog anymore but i will contains my hardfelt feeling towards everything including to u..regrets is all i can say but to wad rights can i say i deserve to be remembered by u..let all these just be a memory a past for me something for me to learn and something for me to suffer for my own weakness
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